The barriers we put up to "protect" our heart are there for reasons that make sense at the beginning. Over time the need for the barriers usually diminishes, but by then we have learned patterns of behavior that are hard to overcome without help. I unconsciously learned at a very young age that … [Read more...]
How to Receive Comfort – Part 1
There I was, eleven years old, out in the garage hiding. I waited until I knew I would not be discovered and went to the freezer that was kept out there and found what I was looking for. The little chocolate donuts, six to a wrapper. I found a package, opened it right there and gobbled down the … [Read more...]
Why I hope the Broncos win today. It’s not what you think.
I was nine years old when we lived in Denver. The reason I know this is because it was the year that the Dallas Cowboys played the Denver Broncos in Super Bowl XII. I also know this because I would turn 10 years old later that year while living in Mexico. There was a fever pitch in Denver … [Read more...]
What do you call God?
It was difficult for me to call God "Father" for the longest time. It took me years to get there. Decades, even. I distinctly remember the first time I heard someone do that as they prayed out loud. They said, "Father, ..." and then started saying the rest of their prayer. I was about 14 years old. … [Read more...]
Anxiety and Hoarding
October 24, 2013. The alarm bells went off in my head again today. When that happens it gets very loud and the flashing emergency lights make it hard to see or think clearly. This time it was about an old, beat up trash can. I’ve had this trash can for about 17 years and it has served me well. … [Read more...]
Anxiety and Overeating
It's official. My eyes are bigger than my stomach... Almost.Every.Time. Just yesterday, even though I served myself less food than I thought I would need (meaning less food than I wanted), I still served myself more food than my body needed for breakfast. There I am spooning food into my mouth, … [Read more...]